Sunday, March 16, 2008

Off to NS

Why am i in the National Service? What is the purpose that God want me to fulfill? Is it testing of my faith? An or multiple opportunity to share and stand for Christ? Answer will be reveal in 2 moths plus time.
Begin with the end in mind. The end.



Meanwhile, sry lar for not able to read or say about yours.

My Father

Well, i thought when i come back from JS, i ll be bleeding the most. With a lot of cross cultural issues, f-ly problems, my own pressure, business, and also those lent meditations, emotions is really big thing and often go roller coaster, loss count how many time i cried.
What surprises me is the fellow who changed the most isn't me, but my dear father. It maybe becoz i understand what is he saying, or he just starting to understand me. He started to take care of a lot of things but he also learn to let go, let God. Overall, he's looking more heaven-ward, and a bit pushy for the f-ly growth process.
But is a bit worrying, maybe i'm plek or just too sensitive. He's been too caring, pushing about our growth spiritually, mental development , he pray a lot , even occasionally talk about GRACE.
Bottom line is he loves us and worried about us and for us.
He's going for an operation on 8-4-08 and 9th. A small one, but there is always risk though.
I'm wondering what am i typing, but i felt....weird. Sorry, i dont understand neither will you...

Friday, March 14, 2008

What's the different?

All the hype of SPM, wow!!
So is it all about me? What difference do u make, as a Christian, a Christian student?
How do you show your gratification to your teachers? In fact, you all can praise God, but do ye remember that God also gave you the teachers, your school-mates? If no, what's the difference do you make as A CHRISTIAN, we may be the ONE and ONLY Christian they will ever see.
"Help us be a light unto the nation, as you chosen generation", we may be talking about changing the nation, nations? The 1st step maybe witnessing to people around us. He said:" Love one another, just as I have love you. By this shall all men(and women) know you are my disciple, if you have love for one another."
How many have been loving to others? To care? To listen?
"Who care to know my name, who care to feel my hurt", What's the world looking for, inside? What in Christian is different? It all depend on who do you say He is?

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Bad day? be it sad day?

Today, i m going to get my SPM result and also have to attend a driving test. The moment i wake up, is like having bad feelings already, have a bad dream. I have to go for the test, and be there by 7am, in fact my instructor kononnya say he'll pick me up from my house at 6.45am. Crap lo, from 6.45 i stand at my house gate to 7.15. A moment by another, i feel so antsy(meaning: a lot of ants).Then, he only phone and say"Eh, i called you to go to the office ar!"(in his indian accent).
WAH!! zhadou, he immediately arrange another fellow to fetch me. So, i reach there, i just apologies for hearing wrongly yesterday, but he also said that the clerk did not call me. Then, i go for 1 round of practice on the slope,parking and turning. Thank God, perfectly well...
Soon, i just got number and ready for the test. I tell u, i never ever feel this amount of ants in my life, not even spm.. What i've practice didn't turn up well.. Maybe is nervous..maybe the car, well, i even said a prayer...but Fat Man lo, but weird thing is "I'll trust in You". I've got the peace.., i think
Then is the on-the-road-test, quite antsy too (this time less ant). Funny thing is i''ve been thru the road 3 times, i actually did not know it well. All along i thought the round-about is 3 o'clock but it is actually 12!! "Kesalahan Mandatori", Fat, fat man.. That did not end my day, i make new friends..
We all have our raoadmap in our mind. Is ours right? Jesus said he is the Way, are we willing to change so that we may be correct, instead of walking off to ...hell? Love Him, you'll love His way, instead it will be hard not to follow His. He said, if you love me, you will obey my commandment. How's our roadmap? Is it the right one? Do we choose to change and read the right one?
This is another weird feeling, i failed the test, but i dont feel the sadness. I must be emitted to hospital... No, i pray for those in the test, in fact both of my new friend, i pray for them, they passed. I'm not happy, but i have the joy, joy comes from the LORD, yes, only Him.
About the SPM , it is still a good one,since i only started my study in September. For those who dont know , i got7A, 3B,2C. Only disappointment is my BC got B, and the rest is all God's grace, hallelujah. Overall, this is the day that the LORD had made, let us rejoice and be glad in it!!
God Bless!
Ps: For RM1xx, i bought confidence and lessons, i think you can pay less!! ^^

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Listening

I am the 1st one who went back to PD i think. Is a vacation, just following my f-ly, me myself is hoping to find peace thru silence and rest??
A one night Stay, is kinda short and i really did not realize it is so short. In fact, the only time i got the time to quiet down is on the way to PD and a mere 20 mins b4 check-out. I did went to the beach but spent time with f-ly, a short time though.
I knew i needed rest and inner-peace that only God can provide, i want His guide and direction but with the 'holiday' being short, maybe, i was left to think over it. My reflection and to-do-list did not finish at all. The sound of the ocean is so nice, it provided the best environment for me, yet...
It had nothing to do with the environment, it had to do with your own heart... We've learn that a heart that is unhurried and silent can listen God. It's not that did you do your QT, it's abt finding God with you heart, whole-heart.
"hearing without listening", listening is different from hearing. Dont hear, listen, we are even called to do more than listening, we're to obey. God Bless!!

Weird , Random thought

Some say evangelism, you go every house, coz who knows "this might be the right house" ,or you just go after you're sure that is the right house.

So should we actually go around trying (sry for using this word) every girls/boys) or should we just be sure he/she is the right one??

Any advice?

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Life Partner

Yesterday, too free, so just kacau any JSS on9, especially girls(lol), coz i got something to ask regarding girl's feeling. I'm preparing for an attack on SPM result day.
A girl very free, so I bring the topic round and round, until I touches on BGR. Before i go any further, I was 'scolded'. She questioned what I've learn in JS and added that we(readers and me) should pray and WAIT for THE ONE. SWEAT. Fine, I'll obey but reluctantly. (U see how EDUCATION failed).
Today, I went to my friend house to visit and also try to lend his book <kiss dating goodbye>. Unfortunately, he returned it, but he shared some of the contents. Let's say if i were to live until 70, I'll have 40+ years of marriage life. His advice is to enjoy my singleness now, serve God to the max while I dont have any beautiful distraction and also more time. (Hon, not good to enjoy too long though, hehe, plz forgive me). I'm convinced, u c transformation work better.
My friend also shared with me abt a Korean pastor prayer life. He prayed for basic necessity like office table, chair, bicycle and so on. But desperate and in vain, he ask God. God call him to pray specifically. He did, pray for table of what length, height, width,what wood, drawer numbers...., very specific, same to other needs. In his sermon, he say by faith he can see it will be there, his members laughed, he responded saying it is like a pregnant lady waiting to give birth, the timing is not right yet. In 6months, he have all those prayer answered.
The pastor minister to a lady, who is praying for a life partner. The pastor advice her to pray specifically, so she listed 10 things and pray faithfully everyday. In the list, she included things like height, size,love music,teacher and blah.... It was answered in 2 years, he is a missionary, music teacher and he fits exactly.
My point here is pray unceasingly and specifically for... erm 40+ of your earthly life who r u going to spend with. Dont blame me if din get married!! :)

Monday, March 3, 2008

Stand up for Christ

A dog highly educated and well-manner, and was hired to a company as a supervisor.
On the 1st day, he noticed a pig. The pig was not well-dressed and looked very untidy, plus he stink and also full of smells of alcohol. This pig hold a high post, not very high though. Doggie give a strong warning to the pig. The pig says he will change and nodded on the dog's command.
The pig did not change his character next morning. Again, the dog warned him, but he is not bold enough for action. Same thing happened for weeks. As the dog get busier, check and warn less of the problematic pig as he still produces good results. Neither does the dog know his resentment and his sensitivity of smell toward him is slowly decreasing.... Complacency grows....
One day, as pig and dog know each other much already, pig invite dog for dinner. At the sight of the pig u can tell he stinks, but the dog dont smell it anymore. They drink together.

So how are u doing after 12 days of JS, yo JS peeps? Do remember you've been thru the "2nd culture" and we are "3rd culture" ppl now. Plz "do not conform to the world", I (I mean we) love you and I do not want you to go back to "1st culture".
It's difficult, we are minority, we are normal, we're Christian. Like today lent medi, the truth we know, but do we succumb to peer pressure like pilate, or do we complacent like the dog? So, love Him, let Him continue to transform us, help us, as we stand for Him, share of Him, live for Him. God bless YOU!!

PS: no offence to pigs and pig fans, HAHA.

Lame

Who knows what is lame?
I just realize the acronyms

L ook
A t
M
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Sounded true, look at me, very dfa

Sunday, March 2, 2008

The ABC for Friendship

Accepts you as you are
Believe in you
Calls you just to say "HI"
Doesn't give up on you!

Envisions the whole of you
Forgives your mistakes
Gives unconditionally
Helps you
Invites you over

Just 'be' with you
Keeps you close at heart
Loves you for who you are
Makes a difference in your life

Never judges
Offer support
Picks you up
Quiets your fears
Raises your spirits

Says nice things about you
Tells you the truth when you need to hear it
Understands you
Values you

Walks beside you
X-plains thing you dont understand
Yells when you wont listen and
Zaps you back to reality

A friend does this, do u? yes, a time to change. :)